Monday, December 16, 2013

My Last Post?

The time has come to face the facts that I am at the point of losing my house.I have been here for close to 22 years.I am trying my hardest to get mortgage modifications on both my 1st and 2nd mortgages, but every step of the way, they throw another obstacle in my way.It is almost like they want to foreclose on me? Why they want to go this route is beyond me.If only I could get a reduction in my monthly payments, then I may be able to stay here.I have an appointment on the 19th(my birthday) with an owner/broker of a real estate co.If she can't help me, then my only other options are foreclosure or a short sale.A short sale appears to be my best bet.I am not sure if prayers really work, but I am in need of them in the worst way!

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

I Gotta Get Out Of This Place.

Life has really kicked me in the balls lately. I really don't know what to do. All that I do, when posting on facebook, causes more problems for me. I say and do things that I end up deleting or apologizing for. It is hard to face the difficulties in my life and I really don't want to bare my soul to just anyone. I appreciate the comments lately from a good friend. I am here for you, if you need to call. That's what friends are for. I love the internet, yet at the same time I abhor it. What the hell is a guy to do?

Sunday, October 20, 2013

The Day I Broke My Father's Heart.

In the fall of 1968, our family moved to Salisbury, MD. from Delaware. The FCC had pulled my father's license to operate his radio station in 1966, due to equipment infractions that he could not afford to fix. I guess that it was a new start for the family, as both my parents got jobs and they had some cash from the sale of our old house. To the best of my recollection, the day in question was December 25, 1968. After all the presents were opened, I was told that there was one more for me and it was in the trunk of my father's car. While he went to retrieve it, I told my mom that "I hope that it is not a bike". Her face dropped! It was a brand new 20" "Spyder" bike with all the bells and whistles. Now what 14 year old would not be overjoyed with such a present! This one; and I had my reasons. I was not the most outgoing kid growing up. I have always been on the shy side. I had left a small town that I was born in and felt comfortable in, and moved to a city and Junior High School that was not very receptive to new arrivals, especially someone who was less than 5" tall and a few pounds shy of 100. To make a long story short, I was the target of bullies. And the last thing that I wanted was to bring attention to myself with a fancy new bike. I never told anyone this before. I wish that I had explained to my dad why I did not want the gift that he was so proud to be able to give me. Unfortunately, it takes years for some of us to rid ourselves of the ghosts that haunt our past.

Monday, September 16, 2013

Israeli attack on USS Liberty (US Navy ship)

I had never heard of the USS LIBERTY until I saw the report of it on another blog. Someone or some people have been tagging visible sites in and around Salisbury, with "political" statements. I do not believe in vandalism, however in this case, I am glad that they did. Searching "USS LIBERTY" on the internet really opened my eyes to what has been going on for years in my government. In 1967, I was only 12 years old. I was not concerned about political events during that period. Vietnam was raging and I never gave it a second thought. Not until 1972, when I registered for the draft in my 18th year, did I start to worry about being selected. Actually, by 1972, if you could afford to go to college you would be exempt; as things were winding down. I remember my mother, who already held a full-time state job as a Social worker, saying that she would scrub floors on the side, if that was what it took to assure that her two sons were able to attend college and avoid going into the service and Vietnam.

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

A Lifetime in Purgatory.

Well, maybe not a lifetime, but at least a year and a half. And a year and a half in real time seems like a lifetime. In July of 2009, after some strange occurrences that included my self perceived notion that my deceased brother was communicating to me through my dementia addled mother, I was born again in the light of Christ. Of course, I went full bore with my new found life:I sported a crucifix, I started going to church, I proselytized my new life's excitement. Unfortunately, real life reared it's ugly head, as my mother passed away as did her annual income to our household. It did not take long for my savings to diminish and I found myself living from paycheck to paycheck. a year and a half before I had stepped down from my management position to devout more time to my new found sanity. That monetary reduction hastened my deep dive into bankruptcy. However, the dismissal of 40k in debt did not alleviate the problem at hand: My bills outnumbered my salary. And as one knows, that will only fly for a short time. Flash forward to July 2013. For the last several months, I have dealt with health issues that I would not wish on my worst enemy. Mornings are the worst. I wake up feeling exponentially worse than when I went to bed. Complete exhaustion, morning stiffness, joint pain and the worst of all, nausea. The worst days are when I have to go to work, which is physically demanding. However, on my off days, I usually never leave the house due to my symptoms. Today I went to my Primary Care Physician and he ordered some blood work(which I immediately had done). The test will rule out(or in)Lyme disease, Mold illness, Thyroid issues and anemia, among other issues. I really hope that some disease or condition comes back positive, as I have no desire to live in my current state. My doc did prescribe to me his preferred anti-anxiety medication and I must agree that this time around it has at least made me feel better (for today anyway). Now to find a video.......

Monday, February 25, 2013

Sunday, February 17, 2013

I Despise Word Verification!

Unfortunately, I have had to install this since I am getting slammed with "robo-comments". Fortunately, I do not have to use this as I am the administrator.

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Sunday, February 10, 2013

Howlin' Wolf - How Many More Years

Muddy Waters & The Rolling Stones - Baby Please Don't Go - Live At Check...

Caught parts of this show on PBS last night. Of course, I hit the remote back to Pawn Stars every time they tried to get me to send them money. I have no money so leave me alone and get back to the show! By the way, I saw the Stones live in Philly previous to this show which was obviously stolen by Mr. Muddy Waters! I did learn one thing that I did not know while watching: Wanna take a guess? (Hint: Bob Dylan).

Friday, January 4, 2013

Charles Manson | Humans on Earth (2011)

You can disregard the man who is speaking here, but you can not disregard the message.